Splintered Grace π
Tina, a conservative christian woman and Bonnie Violet, a trans gender queer drag queen have an anti-cancel culture conversation. While many family members are choosing to no longer speak, we have chosen to sit at the table and engage in difficult conversation to find peace and restoration.
We continue to push the depths of our relationship even further by tackling the difficult conversations that we fear may separate us.
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Splintered Grace π
The Blind Men and The Elephant
This season we push the depths of our relationship even further. Tackling the difficult conversations that we fear may separate us.
Tina, a conservative christian woman and Bonnie Violet, a trans gender queer drag queen have an anti-cancel culture conversation. While many family members are choosing to no longer speak, we have chosen to sit at the table and engage in difficult conversation to find peace and restoration.
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feeling [Music]
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will be [Music]
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hey everybody guess what it's time for splinter grace i'm tina frank i'm a mature christian woman here to have a
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conversation with bonnie violet hi everyone bonnie violet here i am a
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transgender queer spiritual drag artist and digital chaplain and i am coming in from deep creek
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maryland wow that sounds like a mouthful right
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and i hope that our connection stays well this evening if for whatever reason just give folks a heads up
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um if things go a little wonky we'll do our best to keep going and you might lose me for a bit but tina will
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do her best to keep it going hopefully yeah i'll do my best
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so how you've been ah i've been good i've had i had a good week
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hanging out um i got to see a couple of my kids this week uh got to make some shirts for a wedding
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for one of our friends coming up so that's all always a lot of fun um yeah it was was nice
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nice yeah how about you you've been hanging out in a cabin it sounds like having great fun
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yeah we're like we're on a at a lake house and um so we're just like a few
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we're just like a hop skip and a jump to the lake um and uh i haven't been i've
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never been much of a um lake person actually i've only been on a lake once before but i've been out on
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the lake almost every day we've been here for almost wow almost a week now so it's been really great
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did you get seasick no i didn't the most i got was a little sunburnt which is
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why i'm wearing the hoodie to cover all my little pinks my pink parts i guess
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it's funny um kayla is saying aloha hey kayla hello kayla glad that you could join us again and we
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have hurting cats for you as well hey hey hearties happy birthday to you both glad you could join us um
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yes i'm saying a little prayer on the connection is it telling you that it's it's uh not
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strong yeah it's just like one little bar usually that's not a good sign but what
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are you gonna do what are you gonna do we'll do the best we can
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yes yes yes so yeah it's been it's it's been a really great time getting ready to it's been great spending time with
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marcus and getting to know his family who they've just it's just been really fantastic
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i'm so glad i can't wait to see the pictures yeah i i yeah you're gonna have to talk
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to marcus because i probably will not give any of those away freely oh all right well i will definitely talk
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to marcus and see if i can uh maybe put some up there on our facebook page that would be amazing
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yeah maybe for that maybe for that take one for the team bonnie that's
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right that's right so hey what do we have going on this week well so this week you know we're still
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i'm still playing with the the you know the mouse and the elephant and all that fun stuff and so in talking
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with my therapist a while back when i mentioned about the mouse and the elephant he was like oh do you mean the
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blind man in the elephant i was like uh no but what's that and so then i looked it up and so
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um i thought we would use that as a topic for this week
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i actually do have a little video for folks who maybe aren't aware of the story um so if you're listening you can listen
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to it if you're watching you get to watch it um and then we'll talk a little bit about it um once it's done how does
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that sound sounds good to me all right well let's uh let's do it then
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and here we go [Music]
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there were six blind men who grew up in a village in india and the community kept them safe and shared with them many
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stories the men were curious about many of the stories they heard but they were most
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curious about elephants based on the stories that each of them had heard they argued about what
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elephants must be like the community grew tired of these arguments and arranged for the men to
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visit the palace for they were greeted by an old friend from their village who worked as a gardener on the palace
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grounds their friend led them to the courtyard there stood an elephant
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[Music] the blind men stepped forward to touch the creature that was the subject of so
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many arguments the first blind man reached out and touched the side of the huge animal
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an elephant is smooth and solid like a wall he declared it must be very
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powerful the second blind man put his hand on the elephant's limber trunk
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an elephant is like a giant snake he announced the third blind man felt the elephant's
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pointed tusk i was right he decided this creature is as sharp and deadly as a
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spear the fourth blind man touched one of the elephant's four legs
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what we have here he said is an extremely large cow
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the fifth blind man felt the elephant's giant ear i believe an elephant is like a huge fan
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or maybe a magic carpet that can fly over mountains and tree tops he said
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the sixth blind man gave a tug on the elephant's coarse tail why this is nothing more than a piece of
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old rope dangerous indeed he scoffed the gardener led his friends to the
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shade of a tree sit here and rest for the long journey home he said i will bring you some water
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to drink while they waited the six blind men talked about the elephant an elephant is
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like a wall said the first blind man surely we can finally agree on that a
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wall an elephant is a giant snake answer the second blind man it's a spear i tell you
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insisted the third blind man i'm certain it's a giant cow said the fourth blind
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man magic carpet there's no doubt said the fifth blind man don't you see
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pleaded the sixth blind man someone used a rope to trick us their argument
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continued and their shouts grew louder and louder wall snake
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spear cow carpet
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stop shouting called a very angry voice it was the raja awakened from his nap by
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the noisy argument how can each of you be so certain you were right ask the ruler
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the six blind men considered the question and then knowing the raja to be a very
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wise man they decided to say nothing at all the elephant is a very large animal said
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the raja kindly each man touched only one part perhaps if you put the parts
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together you will see the truth now let me finish my nap in peace
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[Music]
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good good story had you heard of the story before i not until you had shared it with me
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i had it i hadn't heard it either how do you think it's relevant to us or is it
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um oh i think it is because i think we all have have unique perspectives based on our own
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experience and understanding and what we perceive to be in front of us so yeah i think it's very
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relevant indeed indeed yeah i've i just yeah i mean i feel like
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i'm bringing these little things like trying to force a like i don't know like if sorry if it's feeling awkward or
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weird no no um but yeah i mean i think it's it just i think for me what it goes is like to i
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mean and i think it's something that we're all you know we're all fairly aware of i think is that you know we we
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all might know i i mean we all might know one part of something and it might even be true it might even not be true
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um but it's it's not necessarily you know what i mean and so we can argue about it or
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you know or or not i guess right right well i thought it was interesting that they chose uh blind men
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for this analogy you know uh site site is a is a perceptor
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had each of them seen and had a site perceptor it may have been a different it would have been for sure a different
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outcome of the whole but i still think they would have all had a different perspective
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based on their background or or or experience so
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so yes i think there's a couple levels of discussion here if we if we want to go there
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um so just in the sense just in the sense that even if they the individuals who
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were talking about an elephant weren't blind they still would have a very maybe
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different ways in which they would talk about um the elephant and the characteristics of the elephant and that sort of thing
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right what you're saying yeah and i think they could probably relate to different characteristics based on their
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experiences you know someone who's looking for strength would see a lot of strength there maybe
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um you know a mouse i we know a mouse can destroy an elephant by running up its trunk
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so you know there would be a different perspective there so i think if we can see or if we can't see we all
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have a unique perspective that we bring to the table
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yeah and and even and like like i guess even with the um like because they had never seen an elephant before right at
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all so i think it would also i'm wondering kind of in thinking about my experience had i
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did i maybe see an elephant and then not see an elephant in the sense of my spirituality or i think of god you know
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in the sense of like i thought i knew i thought i knew this elephant let's say
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um i knew what it was i knew what god was i knew it was all about all what it was
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all about and then life happened and maybe um i don't know if losing sight is something i want to
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say but maybe uh gaining new sight or a different vision if you will then you start i
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started to see things a little bit differently um and you know maybe it's the same thing
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but um i don't know but it's different and like you and i i think we had more of a
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agreement if you will um and then it it kind of changed at some point in time because of maybe our
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experience with different parts of god let's say this say or like how we interact with god or
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what we've come to understand about um the purpose of life and you know all
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that that uh fun stuff [Laughter] all that really easy stuff to to talk
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about and ponder about and pray about yeah i think there's a lot of things that we can perceive from here so i feel
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like there's some some definite conversations that you want to have i'm i'm willing to have those conversations
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is there something in particular that this story brought to your mind that you're wondering about because i'm happy to
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share well i think i think in light of i mean i we both are very you know like we both
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are very grounded and are grounded in our spirituality and are um
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our uh seeking of uh maybe more understanding and being in
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alignment with um with god higher power creator whatever you know all those sorts of things um and yet we might have
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i guess different ways of doing it which again we've talked you know we've talked about
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a lot um and i don't i don't know you know it's like after our last conversation you
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know and kind of i had that realization of like i was kind of like
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okay with you believing whatever you wanted except for this one thing for some reason and it was like once i kind
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of let that go and realize you know that doesn't really matter then to some degree it's like okay that
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stuff doesn't matter but would it still be kind of fun to talk about what would we
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what you know what what we what are we interested in talking about more specifically if if it doesn't um
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if it doesn't um matter in this sense i guess not that it doesn't matter but
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it it's not like it's not gonna change our relationship exactly it's not like um gonna be it's not like we're
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we're i guess punching each you know like we're we're i don't know we're hitting you know what i mean like we're not being
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impacted by the other ones yeah well we're just trying we're not trying to we're not trying to change anyone each other
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we're we're willing to just love each other where we're at um and you know
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pray for one another i mean at the end of the day that's that's what we can do i can't change you you can't change me
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if there's a change it needs to take place um that's my i believe that's god's doing it's not
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for me to change you or for you to change me um and i think that that seeking you know these guys didn't have
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to show up over there they could have said no i don't want to see the elephant i don't want to touch the elephant
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yeah i'm good i just got to believe what i'm going to believe and y'all we'll just argue for the rest of our lives
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they could have chose that but they went and and i feel like we've decided to come we decided to come to the table
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we've decided to bring our perspectives we've decided to lay him down and trust god
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with the with the outcome of who we are but we want to be in relationship
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and so i'm going to love you where you're at you're going to love me where i'm at we're going to choose to do life
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together and if god changes us in the process yay if he doesn't yay
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right it's it's a it's a win so that's kind of
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my perspective um you know
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that's right or wrong but that's that's how i how i see it i you know i i pray for you every day i care about what
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happens to you every day am i worried about you wandering around the world yes
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i pray for you i know i i know i shouldn't because god's gonna take care of you right but but i do so those are
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all things that you can't change no matter if you agree with me or not so just like for you if you have any of
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those things that you do for me i can't change those things no matter if i'm mad at you agree with you disagree
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with you whatever none of that stuff matters yeah yeah i was i was kind of
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noticed also like the um the uh the guy at the end that was like keep it down
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i'm just trying to sleep you know like i'm like yeah i'm like i think there's a lot of people
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in my life that i feel sometimes do that i'm just like they're like girl just go
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to sleep like like i don't know just you know let me be or whatever it's
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um i think i felt that way too right it's like just let me live my life don't come at me with like
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whatever it's not it's not something we need to fight about you know it's really not it's it's
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really not you know there's going to be a lot of things that we're going to disagree with with one another with other people
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but you know that doesn't change um that god created us to be in relationship together
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if he if he didn't we wouldn't be in the same family yeah you know and
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so i just i don't know i figure one of my first steps to honoring who god created me to be
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is to honor the relationships and the people that he's put in my life you know they always say you have a
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family or are people you don't get to choose friends or your family that you get to choose
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i i i don't know that makes me a little uneasy because i think the family or the people that intentionally put in our
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lives to help us to move toward our purpose those friendships that we have along the
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way can enhance that or they could steer us away from that depending on how we let those influences
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um align with us so yeah it can be really tough with me
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bonnie that's it well and it's you know it's interesting because we don't get to choose our family and i think sometimes being in
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relationship with families or family members is probably not healthy and and it could be toxic and maybe not even
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safe so i think it's a like you know i think that's like a real thing to
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like to consider to think about but i think also like one of the things that i've been looking at is kind of like
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because regardless of somebody else's behavior to some degree to some degree there are
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some situations where you know violence like that's
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that's more out of your control right but i like for me the way that i get to try to
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be okay if i choose to be okay with people or one of the things that i was noticing
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is that i was um there in a way i was i was like kind of
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like we talked about last week like i was being hurt by something
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that i was in like i was control of or like i was
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like allowing kind of to happen um because and it wasn't about like oh so-and-so can say this but the way that
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it impacts me is in my control and and that was something that i think a
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lot of us do and i think it's very easy for us to do with family members or
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maybe even if it's bosses or else like other people that there's these certain roles where you know it's it feels a
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little bit harder to um not give them that power or um to to to understand at
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least for me to know what my power actually is in that particular uh situation or circumstance
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yeah i totally get it i spent i spent a lot of my life worried about that kind of stuff
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and i i just decided not to anymore i saw kayla put a period i don't know if
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that meant period to what we were saying or maybe there's more i'm not sure but maybe i thought we just couldn't read
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the writing it was white or something no yeah i wasn't for sure either once i put it on the screen but
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so yeah so i i learned a long time ago that i i get to respond i get to i get
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to manage those things that come at me in a positive or negative way however i want to
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um i also got to choose that i can choose to still love this person or not
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and so i i always take that into consideration before i get offended because i've i've decided um over the
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years that i am not going to be offended end of story i believe that every interaction that i
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have with people is is intentional it's ordained it's it's part of of
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my opportunity to become a better human being and so i want to take every one of those
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interactions positive or negative into consideration and i want to respond
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the best at my ability correctly now people can say rude things to me and
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i can choose to fight back why would i do that in my experience that just fuels
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whatever it is that's already infuriated then a lot of times it's not even furious at me they're just furious at a
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title that i chose to carry it's not even about who i am as a person it's about a title i chose to carry so
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why would i feel that um i can also choose to contin pursue that person in a kind loving way or not
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you know people close to me my family i'm going to pursue that in a kind living way because i believe that family
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is meant to be together now someone physically smacks me i may not
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i may not go to your house i may go to a family reunion and say hello but i'm not going to go to your house for dinner
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and i'm certainly going to send you a christmas card still i'm certainly going to pray for you still but i'm not going to have that give you that opportunity
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to physically hurt me again but i i'm just i don't know life's too short
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i i think people are valuable all people all people are valuable
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and if there is something i can say or do to encourage someone to be the amazing
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creature they've been created to be the amazing person they've been created to be man i want to do that and and go ahead
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and yell at me i don't care i i got pretty thick skin over the over the years i choose to not be offended
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sometimes it's hard not to be offended but i just try to walk it out sometimes i have to take a deep breath disappear
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for a day or two work through that whatever thing that just got me and then come back at it but yeah
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anyway side road nope no no it's good and kayla says uh
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in some circumstances power is also knowing your value and i think i
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think for me that was the key part was not again not understanding my power or my value in a particular circumstance or
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feeling less than right um is kind of often times what it comes down to at least for me and that was
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that was the stuff it's like okay i might not fight you but i'm going to like i would be
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offended in my head and with myself and my experience with that like i would be bothered by it and i still am and so i
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think when you you've often said you know like i don't get offended um and i'm like
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yeah right um because i was still like like but i understand how
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um how like i can work toward that as well
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because i feel like over um the last year so i have
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uh been able to see maybe as kayla says more of my own value i've been able to
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to understand the power that i've given people um that they don't even really know about
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half the time or you know what i mean and so um in doing that i can
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i i not getting offended as much but to be honest with you i feel like
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and i don't again it's like these have to's but for whatever reason i came
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or am coming to that understanding and that way of being through unfortunately
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being offended or hurt or harmed to the point where i had no other choice but to like
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get rid of it you know what i mean like because i could not not
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you know i couldn't i just i couldn't not not um let it hurt me anymore you know like i
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had to find a way to stop being hurt by it um you know and i was being hurt by even
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when i wasn't in the same room with people you know what i mean and that was something i also had to come to realize
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too and oftentimes it was worse actually you know it was actually better once it
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wasn't as bad once we were in the same room yeah you know it's it's amazing how we allow offense
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of it gives its control over us when we allow someone to offend us we're
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actually giving control of ourselves over to them because they're dictating how we respond you know i i in my past
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i've been offended to the point where i wouldn't go places that i wanted to go because this person who offended me might be there and they might say
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something to me or or whatever and i i've just i'm just done give i was just decided i'm done
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giving up that kind of and i'm not going to be mean to them because i realized you know what maybe they've got an issue they're
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trying to deal with and i just seem to be the closest target to make them feel better right and so i'm deciding to give them
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the benefit of the doubt go ahead yeah no one of the things that i'm sorry that
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was just kept like going through my head is that you know like i mentally knew that so like if people are like
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struggling with like i knew that like i i got it i understood it but my emotions
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like took over and my feelings or whatever just like it they just took
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over and i um i i think that's something that maybe
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has been part of my healing is to be able to to i guess deal with those emotions more or to not
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like um i don't know i think that's part of it maybe even to just even go through some
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of those emotions um rather than kind of i think i avoided avoided a lot of
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that stuff for so long that it it kind of built up a little bit
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um kayla says yes exactly stop letting them have free rent in your head
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uh that's a good way to put it yes yes i know right because they don't
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even know they don't even know they're there a lot of times they don't have no clue yeah and i i hear it all the time and
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i've like it's just just like with a lot of things you just come to for me i come to understand like a whole another level or
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layer of the exact same thing it's just like somehow i see it broader or deeper or
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bigger in some ways dominique says it's like the pieces
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can't make themselves whole that's a true statement [Music]
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yes that makes me think of i think we're always whole we i don't think we ever
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break and we're not ever separate um and that's just like a um
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however we experience being broken we experience being in pieces because
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that's how we see it right um but i don't i i think the truth is is that we're always whole
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um just like in the sense that like we're always in god's you know we're always in god's
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care and we're all connected always and we like and we can pretend that that we're not connected that what
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i do doesn't impact you that doesn't impact you doesn't impact you um or i can acknowledge the fact that oh
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actually we are connected and and try to be try to honor and respect that um rather than trying to like
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and and in this i guess in the in the process of doing that as well it's just a much better experience
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do you know what i mean like yeah yeah so my wholeness comes from my
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relationship with god um and and i i feel like i'm complete in
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him and him alone and that pursuit for me is finding those areas that he hasn't been able to
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fully uh reveal himself to me yet yeah and dominique says agreed but society
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cuts us up and i think you know i think society the world does but i think also part of it
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comes down to like are we gonna let them cut us up as individuals you know yeah i i
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think that's for me something that's been more of like what i'm trying to um
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understand and uh and that's just what comes to mind when you say that dominique i don't mean to
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be like arguing with you what came to me was just that um
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that i'm not gonna let them i'm not gonna let myself be created by
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that which cuts me you know like i'm not gonna let that which cuts me like separate me
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anymore i'm gonna heal it and i'm gonna you know kind of move on i'm not gonna i feel like i can't completely keep it
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from happening but i feel like i know what to do hey we can't
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we can't we can't manage other people's actions the only thing we can manage like we talked about already is how we respond
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to it great do you want to read kayla's sure
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um kayla says sometimes our self-talk also makes the situation worse oh that is so true
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some people can make us offended a lot and if we let it happen if we let it happen before they even say
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something to us we are building up our defense in our head and ready for a battle that isn't even there that's true
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yep yeah you're looking for you're looking for the the problem
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like it's like i remember i was dating i was dating this guy i won't say who just for his sake
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um but i was really struggling with him uh we were struggling with each other
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probably i was struggling with him and i was doing everything i could to like fix
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our relationship like there would i was just like i i really wanted to make it work and i felt like uh putting so much
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energy into this and i remember we were at dinner one night not too long before we broke up and we were at dinner and he
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said he said you know what you're half-assed in this relationship and i was like
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are you kidding me like i'm putting so much work into that like i am the one
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trying to like make us work and then i was like i i was like yeah but if you're worried
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about the two of you like if i'm focused on us
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instead of focusing on me and then i can bring my best self to the
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situation i i am half-assing it i am half-assing it i'm only bringing part of
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myself i'm only bringing the part of myself that's looking for the problems um in him or the
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relationship instead of like bringing my best self to the table and then that allows me to
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be in a place to say you know what no i don't think this this relationship isn't working for me
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sorry but you know and that that's basically kind of what happened i was like i was shocked
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um he was like in that moment he's not somebody i was expecting to get such
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wisdom um which was maybe quite the statement to say but i was really shocked by it
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and once i like really thought about it i was so wait you're totally right yeah
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that's good that's good insight yes relationships are hard
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you know family relationships uh marital relationships boyfriend and girlfriend relation friendships
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relationships are hard they're demanding on us but i think they're we're made to be relational on
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purpose like you said we're connected we're relational on purpose and it's that ability to
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grow from the relationship encounters that we have that moves us forward like you know i'm not the same person i
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was my poor husband's been we've been married 20 years and he's been probably married to 10 different women in 20
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years he never knows he comes home he's like okay what do we have today
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so it's not that bad anymore but for a long time i'm i'm really surprised that we're still married
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i'm grateful because he's awesome but it took us it it takes time and and
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effort and one of the things that i had to do i had to and i used the word fast
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because it it's a quick word for me to to check myself um negative thoughts
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anytime i had a negative thought about my husband i'm like well nope i'm fasting all those negative thoughts i'm not going to speak
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that and then i'd make myself speak a positive so just audibly so that i could overcome that
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that negative thought even if it was true i was not going to give it any room in my head so i'm like no i'm not going to speak
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negative this is the guy that i chose to do life with he agreed
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and seems to be showing up every day even if i don't think he's showing up the way i want him to he's showing up
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every day so i'm not going to be negative i'm going to turn that to a positive and i'm going to work really hard
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to see those reasons why i decided that he was the one anyway caleb it was a game changer for me
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kayla says oh i like that um kayla also says congrats on 20 years oh thanks
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we are very excited we feel like newlyweds still right and some and somebody on uh you know on
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twitch is wanting to make us famous it's just spam
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wow right 20 years
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i know i'm not old enough to be married 20 years especially for my second marriage oh my goodness
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well yeah i mean it's unbelievable to think that we've been able to do anything for 20 years right i know
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i know exactly yeah i was like the other day was like realizing that
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early 2000s was like 20 years ago which oh my gosh i know
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what is what are you saying i know and yeah it's crazy
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one of my kids turns 33 tomorrow ooh she's energies jesus here right yeah
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she is jesus here uh see sabra sabre oh
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good memory good memory it was a lucky lucky crab
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well it's hard to believe that they've gotten older too you know oh my goodness i know that all of my
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kids are over 30. what just happened i'm not old enough to
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have kids over 30. well you you are but i don't feel like i am yes yes yes
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yeah well when you're young and you already have your kids out of the house and now you have grandkids and yep
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i'm still young enough to go kayaking which is what i'm doing this weekend how are you yes i am going kayaking this
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weekend with my honey and some friends so yes so you're right i am young enough to still have fun
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oh right right right oh kayaking that's yeah yeah
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i've been i've been you know i mentioned earlier like i've been on a lake i i think i've only not like
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water like this only one time in my life that i can recall and i normally haven't been i
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don't enjoy water um especially like reverse lakes um i don't enjoy being in the water
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i don't enjoy water sports like and mostly it's like the cold and all that
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that i don't like but i like told myself like stop again stop
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with those those things and give it a try and you had a great time right i've had a really
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great time i've gotten some bumps and bruises and some burns and but it's been really great i also
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learned how to like tie knots and how to it's just been really like um i remember
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like there's been plenty of times when i've just like been sitting in the boat and like oh my gosh like this is
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this is really cool you know and um i think there are times in my life when i would have thought that that was like um
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not i don't know like it didn't matter it wasn't a good use of time or something
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and it's just like are you kidding me like this is great i understand why people do
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it yeah that's awesome i i votes make me a little bit you know nauseous
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so i'm hoping the kayak will be better yeah it i haven't had that problem with like being on the boat i've actually
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it's been really great that's awesome i i expected for you know something but no it's been a really good time
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uh kayla says i am young enough to still have fun but definitely not in any shape to kayak
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plus there there are no bathrooms on a kayak that's true that's a good point that's a good
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point and so yeah i it'll be a first well not
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a first i've been in the kayak it's been years ago but we have some friends that have been kayaking and they're in our age group
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and um they invited us up and they said you guys want to go kayaking i'm like no rapids please so we're just going to
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kayak around the lake but i think it'll be fun i'm not i'm i'm looking forward i'm like okay kayaks are pretty skinny
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okay i'm not little any anything either so i don't know if i have to
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order the right if there's a size involved or or what but i will tell you next week
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how this goes and if i get flipped over and um ever go kayaking again
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well you're you're in good hands you're with your are you will you be sharing a kayak with your house with your hubby
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nope individual kayaks nice i think i think it'll be fun
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yeah yeah kayla says i am i'm of the age when you walk past the bathroom you say well i
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might as well while i'm here hello well
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that's funny yeah all right well now i'm gonna ask them if there's any bathrooms even at the
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like where where do i go yeah i'm gonna go before i get in this boat like there's a little cup where there's
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a little hoe oh jesus yeah well there's a little hole in the bottom
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of the kayak it's like right thank you right yeah
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yeah it's so fun well we are like 40 minutes in so
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we have i know it went i can't believe it i went by so we just have five five more minutes
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to kind of begin to wind her wind her
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i thought you down gonna say something what did you think i was gonna say
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no what did you think never mind anyway okay
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after the show i'll tell you after oh i want to know now i'm sure our
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listeners want to nope you're not going to play that role
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so where are you headed next bonnie um i i yeah i mean next week when we
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when we get on i will be in dc i'll actually be in like
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on awnings awnings awnings um hill or something like that it's just 30
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minutes outside of dc so i will be coming in from there
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um we i'll we get we go back to baltimore on saturday and then sunday
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monday i will head to the dc area uh to spend some time with
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my friends anthony and katelyn that is awesome are you gonna be flying or driving
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um we'll be driving it's like um not far i guess like this place is also kind of
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a suburb of baltimore so like on the east coast everything is like super super close so yeah see i don't know my
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way around the east coast much i i don't either but if it feels like you just like i don't know trip and
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you're like in another state like it's everything is just so especially like in this part this area
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yeah you know like i think a few minutes here in west virginia or in maryland now you know like
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so i think everything's relatively close that's awesome are you going to do any sightseeing while you're in d.c
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um i'll do a little bit i know i'm going to go get my nails done with anthony and then like
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um next weekend i i'm hosting a i'm with some people who are hosting that recovery conference that we've been
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working on for a year so that's over labor day weekend so that weekend i'll pretty much probably just be stationed
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since it's a virtual um conference yeah yeah so speaking of conferences how do you if
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someone wanted to book you for a conference or for a speaking engagement is that something that you're going to be doing while you're traveling around
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yeah i'm always i'm always open to that um you know i actually spoke with
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um an individual earlier this afternoon just before we came on who um she actually reached up to me she wants to
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have me on her show um she also wants to um i can't think the name of the
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organization right now but i'll be sure to share it but they're um they're gonna have me on their show they're also gonna
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um share um a queer chaplain uh research on part of their research um
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or their resource um arm for their they're like a non-pro lgbtq um well it's not lgbt it's mostly
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like femme uh like femme focused kind of queer femme focused um
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lgbtq center i'm totally chopping this off i should have looked into it a little bit more but
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basically they want me to um they want we're going to collab a little bit um i have to do the podcast maybe um
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i'm going to moderate maybe some panel discussions and stuff with them and we're i don't know they're going to have
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a magazine soon so maybe we'll be able to do some writing or something but it sounds like there's a lot of really um
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great opportunities though i'm definitely like that's something i'm really um hoping
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uh that will will happen you know yeah yeah i put together like a little promo on my
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instagram and stuff to with like the tour if you will of all the places i would like to hit
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over the next uh few months um so um my hope is to get
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folks um in those areas to say hey i'd like you to i'd like to talk with you and have
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you interview me about my drag um persona and my spirituality or my transness and spirituality or i'd like
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you to come talk to my church or my church group or my um i don't know my support group um
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any of that sort of stuff either while i'm in the area or even i can do it virtually too because i know like
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a lot of places are closing back up again or yeah i've been here definitely limiting their um
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in person kind of space again so i'm willing to kind of work with whatever um works with folks but i'm really hoping
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to continue to do more and more of whatever
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whatever you know whatever this looks like that's what god wants me to do would have me do you know
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that's awesome wow i'm excited for you i'm praying for you and um yeah i can't wait till next week
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when i get to see what's happening in dc oh my goodness i don't feel like go along i know it's like time
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lapse i know i know it's like what just happened
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and how how are um how is things going are you doing a bible study right now i am um if you want to go out to i
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identify as christian that's my group that i have we're hosting i'm
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hosting or my friend actually is hosting allowing me to teach uh on the book of john
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so it's been fun we have a pretty good group there uh we're only on chapter 12. so you're not late we're gonna hit go through the
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whole book so however long that takes so you can come and go it's online open to the public
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absolutely yep absolutely if you have questions about anything before you jump in just let me know it's a zoom meeting
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um but all that information is out there on my facebook group yep so always feel
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free to reach out to either of us um we have lots of cool stuff going on and we'd love to be involved with
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your cool stuff too i don't know what that was but [Laughter]
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all right do you want to send us off sure you guys have a fabulous week um think about us
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through the week as we're always thinking about you guys and again reach out to us we are available to answer
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questions have conversations and just i don't know what be in your cool stuff as bonnie said
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so have a fabulous week all right love you all bye-bye
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